I am not alone

Check out this blog I found--http://scrupulosityocd.blogspot.com/. It pretty much describes another person's issues with ocd (Specifically with scrupulosity, the type of OCD I struggle with and am recovering from even today). I find it thereputic to know I am not alone with this struggle.

While things are still in recovery mode for me, I am certainly not out of the woods yet. Just last weekend I was wrestling with thoughts of perpetiual "you must obey", "obey obey obey" , "obedience means you have no choice and you are lost", "obedience is a must if you are a Christian and since you cannot obey, you are a terriable Christian and are not saved" (you know, the typical stuff). All because of a small group I was in that started talking about obedience and children. I will no longer be a part of this group...it is too much for me at this point.

I am now on three medications: one for depression, one for my OCD, and another to help me with my feelings of apathy (a side effect of the OCD medication). Feeling great lately as I can go through many days without feeling like I am lost and without hope. Kinda nice...thank God for medication.