He who is free...

Had a meeting with my psychologist last Monday and basically shared with him how last Sunday went. He basically, in a kind way, told me to stop this way of thinking and self loathing--that God would not have me beat myself with worrying about the way I should be or cannot be. It occurred to me that Christian living is not about so much dos and don'ts but more so on living in the Grace of Christ and learning to live within that Grace despite our inadequacies--His Grace is INDEED sufficient for us. I feel quite a bit more free lately because of this and feel almost whole again. However, the ultimate test will be if I can live this out when the voices or knives come back again (and they will try)...when they do, I am to say this: "I am not going to entertain you anymore. This is not what God would have of me. I am free." I might think of something better to say later but that will work for now :-) .

Needless to say, I am doing better since last Sunday and am glad to be alive.